"I've made a vocation out of applying the logic of clown to other areas of my life—art criticism, stand up, filmmaking—trying to see if deconstruction can be a form a play, instead of dour intellectualism. The more I learned about the presumed conventions of filming stand up comedy, the less I wanted to make a special that hid its machinations as a film. A clown always performs with the seams out, so that's what I wanted to do: to be aware of every body on set as if it were a theater, to see failures as gifts, and to be radically in the moment even as I tried to stick to the script. I've performed this material many times, and continue to do so. This special is just one snapshot of one  performance (actually two of them, stitched together in post, overlaid with an intricate web of Foley—we don't throw every convention out the window). A clown on film is like the light of a star; what you see is only the remainder of a self that burned out long ago. On to the next one Barf."